Error.... Files could not be deleted!!

 

I bet most of you just read the title and wondered what does this have to do with the post or the topic am going to write?!  Like is it relevant?! Well, I will explain my point as we go through the post....
Error files could not be deleted...which files do I mean?!  
Well, here I speak metaphorically, by files I mean "Memories" …the good and the bad
I know I mentioned this memory stuff a lot before but I don't know why do I keep going back to the same issue over and over again?!  Maybe because it is never resolved?!  They say that time heals everything?!  They lie... Time does nothing.... It didn't help me forget the past!!  I still remember them especially those who hurt and left the deep scars inside my heart...  Believe me I tried so hard to suppress those feelings, memories and thought and just act like they are not there but I failed...
People make you feel that it is very simple like just pressing a button and everything is over and you can just start over a "fresh start" but I guess this only happens in movies I guess... Cause even if you try to supress those "whatever things" you are trying to.... Your subconscious will never allow it!!  Or is it just me?!  I don’t know it became too trying to remember everything!!  Like sometimes I wish I could just shut down my brain and stop for a period of time!!  Some people advised me to try to distract myself...  But why is it that anything that happens throughout my daily life reminds me of some in my past?!  Or am I just a drama queen who wants to keep remembering the past and dwell over it and ruin her future?! 
Or have I just had enough from this life that I can't fight anymore... Like I have no energy left to struggle?!  Everything seems too tiring and too consuming.... 
So?!  Anyone got the same issue like me?!  Or am I like a sort of an alien on this planet?!!!