Do you
ever crave a person?! Not in a sexual way but u just crave their presence
in your life?! There are different cravings like chocolate, chips, shopping,
make up and an infinite number of different sources of cravings....
But when you crave a person's presence like he/she is your 11:11 wish...this is the most destroying thing ever.....
You know when life seems empty and meaningless, then all of a sudden you meet someone who gives it a whole new picture?! Like you start loving yourself and starting loving your life....when their presence makes you feel safe and secure?! To feel loved by them, to feel how much they care...
When you get attached to some kind of person who makes you happy, smiling, need nothing at all but them?! They call it true love... I call it “suicide" ....
Here is the thing life is not fair, and you never always get what you want.... Once you get attached to someone and u start catching feelings for them you are standing on the edge and you just hope you won't fall or they won't push you ... Like giving them a loaded gun and trusting them not to shoot you!! It's wicked actually especially that you cannot control those feelings deep inside of you even if you hid them externally they are inside of you, trapped and this is when you know you are screwed!! I am not saying that love is something bad and should be avoided of course not... I am just stating the fact that it's like a gambling game,
you either win or lose....
So let us talk about the loss right now...we all know how it is perfect when things work out...
So u get attached to someone, they became everything to you... They are your life, the air you are breathing the blood that's flowing through your arteries bla bla bla we all know these expressions, but then something happens!! No matter what happens actually whether they were playing you, cheated on you, weren’t good enough i am not going to talk about the causes, let us focus on the results or i might say the consequences!!!
There are different phases how people handle a heartbreak
1. The denial: you convince yourself that you don't need them and you are better off without them and you will find someone who deserves you etc.
2. Depression: you think life is over... You crawl in your bed, not talking to anyone and getting worse by time
But when you crave a person's presence like he/she is your 11:11 wish...this is the most destroying thing ever.....
You know when life seems empty and meaningless, then all of a sudden you meet someone who gives it a whole new picture?! Like you start loving yourself and starting loving your life....when their presence makes you feel safe and secure?! To feel loved by them, to feel how much they care...
When you get attached to some kind of person who makes you happy, smiling, need nothing at all but them?! They call it true love... I call it “suicide" ....
Here is the thing life is not fair, and you never always get what you want.... Once you get attached to someone and u start catching feelings for them you are standing on the edge and you just hope you won't fall or they won't push you ... Like giving them a loaded gun and trusting them not to shoot you!! It's wicked actually especially that you cannot control those feelings deep inside of you even if you hid them externally they are inside of you, trapped and this is when you know you are screwed!! I am not saying that love is something bad and should be avoided of course not... I am just stating the fact that it's like a gambling game,
you either win or lose....
So let us talk about the loss right now...we all know how it is perfect when things work out...
So u get attached to someone, they became everything to you... They are your life, the air you are breathing the blood that's flowing through your arteries bla bla bla we all know these expressions, but then something happens!! No matter what happens actually whether they were playing you, cheated on you, weren’t good enough i am not going to talk about the causes, let us focus on the results or i might say the consequences!!!
There are different phases how people handle a heartbreak
1. The denial: you convince yourself that you don't need them and you are better off without them and you will find someone who deserves you etc.
2. Depression: you think life is over... You crawl in your bed, not talking to anyone and getting worse by time
3. Crying: you take a period of
your life and keep crying and crying and crying then you finally stop and move
on
4. Anger: you express the hurt in anger, may post on social media, block them, send them shitty texts, fights in public places etc. we all know this never ends well
5. Hope: in my opinion this is the most dangerous way to deal with a heartbreak... I myself use it and it cost me a lot.
You keep hoping that things will get better, your mind makes up scenarios and day dream about good things that will happen... Like you still believe that no matter how long it takes things will get back together the same they were.... But sadly hope is dangerous, it drives people crazy.... And once you wake up to the fact that it is unrepairable and it is over for good it will be one of the hardest things to move on....you will just give up!!
Actually the previously discussed mechanisms may all lead to a dead end.... But you will have to move on and live or try to live your life and act normal....
But here is the point...you crave these people.... It's like they are still on your mind
when something happens either good or bad and especially bad you remember them and u wish u could just call or text and tell them all about it...
I know how it feels... You are not alone whoever is reading this
You feel empty, broken, sad, depressed, indifferent, nothing matters anymore....u don't even understand yourself and you can't explain it to others or simply others don't care. Much to try and help you out of it...
I guess it's the memories and the feelings you had with those people are the reason why it is very hard sometimes to let go and move on... And just get rid of your addiction to them...
So you think there is a way out of this vicious cycle?! Or sometimes you just reach your limit and you can't fight anymore and it is easier to surrender?!!
I guess this will remain a question which will keep you awake at night thinking about your life.....
4. Anger: you express the hurt in anger, may post on social media, block them, send them shitty texts, fights in public places etc. we all know this never ends well
5. Hope: in my opinion this is the most dangerous way to deal with a heartbreak... I myself use it and it cost me a lot.
You keep hoping that things will get better, your mind makes up scenarios and day dream about good things that will happen... Like you still believe that no matter how long it takes things will get back together the same they were.... But sadly hope is dangerous, it drives people crazy.... And once you wake up to the fact that it is unrepairable and it is over for good it will be one of the hardest things to move on....you will just give up!!
Actually the previously discussed mechanisms may all lead to a dead end.... But you will have to move on and live or try to live your life and act normal....
But here is the point...you crave these people.... It's like they are still on your mind
when something happens either good or bad and especially bad you remember them and u wish u could just call or text and tell them all about it...
I know how it feels... You are not alone whoever is reading this
You feel empty, broken, sad, depressed, indifferent, nothing matters anymore....u don't even understand yourself and you can't explain it to others or simply others don't care. Much to try and help you out of it...
I guess it's the memories and the feelings you had with those people are the reason why it is very hard sometimes to let go and move on... And just get rid of your addiction to them...
So you think there is a way out of this vicious cycle?! Or sometimes you just reach your limit and you can't fight anymore and it is easier to surrender?!!
I guess this will remain a question which will keep you awake at night thinking about your life.....
